Monday 6 October 2014

Bestie - October 6, 2014

If it is not a female Bestie (best friend) that makes people think we may be a couple or they dwell heavily on why we spent so much time together… it is now everyone acting like they are utterly confused and interrogating me as to why my male Bestie and I spend a lot of time together but are not intimately interested in one another.  It seems, if I am not getting it on with a straight woman, or, a gay man, everyone is utterly confounded.  Umm… I am not sure why it is confusing… and with both of these people who I was blessed to have in my life (one of them past and one of them present) I can explain why they are, or, were once my best friends.  I think there are many people who will understand it too, for they have someone close to them… their own bestie!

I started off with the idea of an essay-styled story of my love I have had for my besties and how we are so close.  I changed my mind, because just like I have become ignorant and feel no need to explain to everyone who continually question my relationship with my besties, I suddenly realized I don’t feel like it here like I thought I might. I don’t feel obligated whatsoever anymore.  I loved her, I love him, and there is no explanation to provide anymore.  The friendship is what it is, and that’s all that matters to me. 

Having a love for them that is truly agape love (unconditional love) for these people I decided to list instead of how these frienships . 

Unfortunately the love for the female bestie, for those who may wonder, it died when I realized her love for me was conditional and filled with very negative thoughts and feelings towards me that I never felt toward her.

Here is what stands out the most in my relationship my Bestie, the best guy in the world:

Laugh all the time

Share and encourage our dreams, hopes, happiness, and support those goals

Lean on one another through good, bad, the ugly and the stupendous

Therefore we are there for one another no matter what the crisis is

Listen and give feedback, a confidant to each other

Know how to surprise one another pretty good

Walk or hike lots and take on all kinds of adventures

Common interests: teas, food, books, shops.

Where we are different (in whatever capacity) is not a big deal and does not affect the friendship, it often strengthens it.

Jokes only you two understand and the expressions on each other’s faces and not words (except the ones in your head) are a telltale that you are both thinking or judging in the exact same way about people or the situation

Appreciate nature and staring off into the scenery around us, or, explore it

Can be super comfortably silent with one another for any length of time

Have many of the same morals and philosophies

Family matters greatly to us

Some things with regards to other people’s confusion and need for the relationship to be labeled or explained just because it seems to be an issue for them that they need to (apparently) resolve, even though my friendships or any relationships has nothing to do with them. 

The thing I do know most is this, I love that Bestie and would do anything to protect him, and help him and take care of him.  Because he is the Best Bestie a friend could possibly ask for.
 
What are some great past times of you with Bestie? (For those who may be reading)

~Ange


Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Friday 3 October 2014

Favourite Feel Good Films - October 3, 2014

My little hidden gem of films that I love and make me feel happy and good watching them every time! Does anyone else have a list of films that make them feel good too?

Mine are (some have been recently added):

Whisper of the Heart

Midnight In Paris

Chef

Eat Pray & Love

Hitch

Best Exotic Marigold Hotel

Guardians of the Galaxy (one of my latest)

This Is Where I Leave You (another new favourite)

Red


Some movies that make the cut and are partnered together here due to remakes in another language are:

Il Mare AND (the english film) The Lakehouse

Another duo like this
Shall We Dance (both versions in Japanese and English)

 ~Ange


Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Tuesday 30 September 2014

No Internet - September 30, 2014

There has been no internet here at my family’s home for two weeks. Alas, lucky for me, I do not usually have access to internet anyways unless it is somewhere else other than my own home so it was fine for me, but for others not so much. Now that it is up and running again around these parts I can start posting again.

I had many other essays and ideas when the internet was around a few weeks ago, however I kind of forgot about them when it disappeared for a time and did a bunch of work and enjoyed some fun.

It’s interesting, I thought having internet at my fingertips for the first time in so long that I would miss it, especially when I got so used to it when I came home for my lengthy sabbatical and then only to have it disappear for a fortnight. I guess not!?

Many neighbours and family members who had to go without the internet did not seem so happy. My main concern was for money being wasted on something not being available to the consumers (oh how my priorities must look in saying that), and perhaps some felt that way, but the ranting and raging on social media sites tells me it was much more than just money. It was being able to reach out to anyone at anytime so easily. Staying connected to their loved ones, friends, and the news were the big ones.

As some of you may know from previous blogs, I am however more of a face-to-face interactive person myself. That is my preference.
...However, this has made me an extremely poor writer for blogging.

~Ange.


Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Tuesday 16 September 2014

I Believe (Round 2): September 16, 2014

Respect, care, listening, observing, using manners and being polite, trying to understand the life another walk I think makes a difference in how we can treat each other… how we can help one another.

I believe every life has a right to live, a right to follow their goals and dreams, make plans and find their place in this world…

…However…

…When our actions hurt other people by something we do or words we say that invade another’s life… like when we steal from them, lie about them, physically harm them, cause emotional and mental anguish… then that freedom I think has now become limited, and I believe there are consequences (as there should be). 

If someone has done an act that causes another pain, and regrets it and takes efforts to make amends, then that is a very good thing; apologizing and doing what it takes to help heal is what helps in this world, I think.  But...

If there is no regret, if there are only excuses or no show of remorse for the painful results of hurting another human being, then I think there is a problem, and there should be consequences.

I often think if we observed and really saw the consequences of the pain we can do to others, and listen to the voice of other’s to understand more, and being kind and gentle, the world would not be as I seem to see and hear so much of it these days…

People cheating on one another…

Stealing from another…

Physically harming each other, even going so far as to torture and kill…

Selling each other…

Lying to, and, about one another…

Spreading gossip and rumours, especially with the intention to do harm…

Plotting some form of harm to another, including social, mental, or emotional…

I have always felt that pointing out these wrongs, and being completely black and white about them is the right thing to do (telling one another when we do something that hurts others and what the results were, pointing them out)… and trying to make efforts to help each other whom have been harmed or in danger of someone hurting them too could help save a life, could help change someone’s life for the better…

We can’t leave each other to be alone to deal with our own problems.  We can’t just shut out other people either and deal with everything ourselves, that means sometimes swallowing our pride and asking for, or, accepting help can make a world of difference…

… It brings us closer together, and helps one another. At least, that’s what I believe. 

~Ange



Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Thursday 11 September 2014

What I Am or Wish To Become, Both For Myself & Others: Part 2 - September 11, 2014

-Be respectful and learn from others, especially those who are older than I, faced greater hardships than I, or grew up in different ways than I did.

-Sacrifice when I need to in order to live the life I know is right or that I wish to have; which often means l am taking the harder path versus than easy path even if it is alone.

-Always know when to draw the line in the sand with people who are attempting to compromise who I am and my morals.

-Remain forthright all my days, and know when to distinguish the timing between being firm and realistic in my expressions versus gentle honesty.

-Keep vigilant in being observant and a strong listener, people’s tone of voices and body language say so much more than what we are actually conveying in verbal communication with one another.

-Be open to making friends and keep strong ties with them just as I do with my family.

-Never lose my curious nature and my desires to learn, my need to research and investigate always remain strong and constant in me.

-Never forget to tell others, my loved ones, how I feel about them and forever express how much they mean to me and my love for each and every one of them.

-Knowing when to be open and reach out to make connections, especially positive ones, yet, also foresee of the times needed to be cunning and observant of those who could do me harm or have negative personalities.

-Never stop believing in a higher power, give up my spiritual side, nor lose hope or faith, or my perseverance in prayer.

-Believing in that everything happens for a reason and that down the road I will see why all events occurred; the good and the bad.

-Share my energy and enthusiasm with the world in the good times, remembering to keep calm, strong, steady and ever-supportive when times are tough.

-Ensure that choosing humility and kindness is more present throughout my life rather than ego or desires.

-Always read into my body, mind, and soul’s needs and wants in order to maintain a healthy, balanced, positive life.

-Have hobbies and passions to keep me busy and sharpen my brain.

-Give of myself even when I have nothing else to give or help.

-Always love and care, never become cold, distant and bitter.
~Ange.


Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Wednesday 10 September 2014

What I Learned NOT To Do: Part 1 of Who I Wanted To Be – September 10, 2014

We meet all kinds of people in our lives that teach us things, for me that has included how I don't want to be, how I don't want to treat people.  This is part one of what I have learned of how I want to be in life, and starting with the list of how I DID NOT WANT to be.  Sadly, much of this I learned from family, one female character in particular though I it breaks my heart to say whom it is so I won't:

-lie, exaggerate, or change the story of events.

-put people on the spot with falsities to impress the crowds I wish to please and make the one in the spotlight feel obligated to follow through with my lie in order to make it truth for my own benefit.
 
-never asking people for help or favours respectfully or politely, but rather demand in a rude manner, all the time... and worse, if I do anything for you (including giving you gifts) it is for my own benefit in some way, or, I will try and use it against you as a guilt trip, call in a favour, or make a demand... so everything I would do for others has condition behind it with me.

-be lapse in observations of others so badly that I question people to do something for me even when that individual is right in front of me doing that very action already.

-behave as if I were center stage, and that you are all my audience so that I never actually realize that everyone else already has a center stage that they also have to take care of and maintain.

-I support, love, and care for other people without any ultimatums or ulterior motives behind it.

-not listening to what others wants or needs are, nor practicing sympathetic or empathetic feelings for others enough to see from their point of you or understand where they are coming from.

-swear like a sailor to everyone when I am in a bad mood (literally assaulting your ears).

-gossip (especially cruelly or to hurt others to make myself look and feel better)

-lack of listening to others, and trying to have my say in more than the other person

-instead of saying what’s wrong with me or venting to others when I am stressed and upset, I take out on others and make them guess why I am mad, sad etc

-make my own messes in life (metaphorically and literally/physically) and expect everyone else to clean it up for me.
~Ange.


Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Friday 5 September 2014

The Roles We Play – September 5, 2014

I think it is interesting how many skill sets each of us have to utilize in a day, the many roles we decide to take on.  There is so many, isn’t there? I went through a week’s worth filled events that I had to deal with, it was plentiful that’s for sure! In one week I felt like I had fulfilled a role of being:

Bodyguard

Counselor

Secretary

Nurse              

Chauffeur

Errand lady

Housekeeper

Organizer

Cook

Health & Nutrition advisor

 And of course my favourites:

Daughter

Sister

Grandchild

Niece

Cousin

Friend
 
What are some of your roles you fulfill in a day?
~Ange


Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Escape To the River - September 5, 2014

Yesterday I was totally immersed in staring at my surroundings, something I absolutely love to do to break free of the confinements of my weeks that involve hectic schedules.  I had a couple of hours to escape the chaos of life which entails people around me 24-7, and be alone.

I hiked along a small cliff until I found the perfect lookout point to rest, gazing at the sparkling pale-blue river, vibrant green rolling hills, thick dark green trees… I suddenly had this huge impulse to bolt from the bench I sat on and take off on a long hike into the hills, through the forests, to shallow depths of the river to some of the small islands hideaway from everyone for a few days. 

If only I could! I probably would not mind getting lost either.  Alas, I stuck with getting lost in the flow of the river, a hypnotically peaceful rush running over me. I stayed in the zone for as long as possible… until I knew I had to return to the real world.
~Ange.
Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Wednesday 3 September 2014

DVDs I Wish I Had In My Collection - September 3, 2014

There are so many cartoons I watched growing up.  My favourite animated shows were definitely in the eighties, nineties, and the beginning of the twenty-first century.  As I get older, reminiscing parts of my childhood includes cartoons I was immersed in, and then I think of how I wish to own them even if I am in my thirties and seem too old for cartoons. I love cartoons and always will!

Here are some of the shows I thought of, and I wish I could get my hands on but it is difficult to do, or, they are unavailable on DVDs:
 
Nighthood ~ a cartoon I watched when I was in my late teens to early twenties.

Iron Chef (Japan) ~ the original Iron Chef show.

Rainbow Brite ~ yes, I love the Rainbow Brite TV series.

The Bots Master ~ I enjoyed that series very much.

Gargoyles Season 2, volume 2 ~ this is my favourite series of all time.

Belle & Sebastian (Japanese TV series) ~ I haven’t seen this show in years, and would love to own it and watch it again.

Bush Baby, the Little Angel of the Grasslands ~ I can’t remember the last time I watched this, but I remember I liked it a lot.

Any DVDs some of you folks out there have a hard time finding but would love to have? 
~Ange.



Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Tuesday 2 September 2014

Speaking of Hobbies & Alone Time... - September 2, 2014

I miss video games, large amounts of books within my reach to read whenever I please, or being alone to draw (I need to be alone for when I draw).

I know keeping busy along with being surrounded by people all day long hasn't just been great for those around me, but myself as well both spiritually and mentally.  I am definitely not bored and doing good stuff around these northern parts these days.  However, I cannot help have moments of missing moments alone...

Pulling all nighters on my favourite video games, getting lost in virtual worlds for hours with junk food around me.

Cozying up in thick blankets with cups of tea while reading book after book of many different genres to keep my imagination and interests fresh and rejuvenated.

Drawing, painting, or making cards for many hours, even days. Even getting so involved in my creations that I forget to eat, drink or sleep until I am satisfied with what I have made.

Researching at the libraries and books stores on my weekend mornings on things I am curious about; satisfying my thirst for knowledge.
~Ange.





Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Monday 1 September 2014

Fun, Family Quotes & Stories – September 1, 2014

This adventure to the north with my family during what I am calling my sabbatical is not without great hilarity (or what I believe is hilarious commentaries by my family members), as my loved ones always crack me up. Here are some of the many funny things I have heard so far:

-Sister Sam and I recalled recently the first time she ever tried naan bread. Four years ago we were at the restaurant when I was introducing her and the rest of the family to the menu, it included naan. I was explaining how great naan bread was, as I did she had this incredulous and yet very confused expression on her face. She then leaned in and whispered very seriously, “Did you say, ‘man,' bread?” We all laughed so hard.

-Recently my sister (Sam again) and I were discussing our eating habits and referred to herself as being, “such a pig!” As my sisters and I are all big eaters I agreed that I am one as well, she jokingly and sarcastically expressed that I was like three times bigger than her and that I was a, "SUMO!" I tried to add to that comment but she stopped me by covering my mouth and whispered to me, "Suuuuumoooo!"

-I laugh at my Aunt’s mild road-rage (with good humour) she has when I have happened to be in the passenger seat with her, it totally reminds me of my Grandpa (God rest his soul). She will say things like, “Everyone get in, sit down, strap yourselves in, be quiet, and HOLD ON TIGHT!” Grandpa’s quote, was, “Everyone get in the boat! Now sit down, be quiet, and behave!”

-When my Uncle is driving and he gets behind other drivers at a red light just as it changes green and they aren’t moving fast enough for him he mumbles, “Dear Lord it is not getting greener you know! Go, go, go!”

-My cousin, whom I fondly refer to as, "Big Brother (Big Bro), gets in the front seat of the car with sister Sam who is driving. He looks at her and asks:
"Oh my gosh do I get a blindfold?"
Sam: "You know what cous? Be quiet!"
Later Sam says: "You better hold on tight Brother, this is gonna get crazy!"
Big Bro: "Why? Are you going to eject my seat?"

-My Dad and Sister we call Crash came up for a visit and found out that they were going to have to do some work with the relatives over the weekend while they were visiting; they clearly had forgotten that they said they would help. Dad with a bit of frustration at his own forgetfulness and laughter says, “I suddenly feel like a child and don’t want to do something! Going to throw a fit now!” Dad then proceeds to stomp the ground with his left foot just like a child who is getting upset. Imagine a slim, tall, fifty year old man with short salt and pepper hair doing this!

-The Big Bro and I growing up have said a lot of things to one another regarding concerns about family members; often it seems insensitive and cut throat, but it depends on the family member. We have a relative and his girlfriend who don’t seem to care much for each other anymore, even in times of crisis they are not exactly supportive of one another and spend most days complaining to others about their relationship or just getting mad at one another ALL THE TIME! Recently my cousin, Big Bro, says, “You know why they are together don’t you?” he throws his hands in the air and shakes his head, “They are just waiting for the other to die and collect the money that’s all it is.” The sad, and, hilarious thing is, he is probably right.
~Ange.





Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Wednesday 27 August 2014

How My Blogs Have Been Working! – August 27, 2014

Lack of internet makes it hard to keep up on blogs!  But continuing to post what I jot down on paper and then post it when I can is what I keep doing.  Everything up here is what I have been thinking and sorting through on those days, so I stamp the date in the title to keep it all sorted for myself, AND, give people who may view these blogs an idea of what was running through my head those days!
~Ange.



Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Where I Want To Go? – August 26, 2014

If I could, I would have a job as a traveler, with my home city as the main base to go to.  I really want to see the world, learn about it, write about it, experience it so I can understand and appreciate it while it lasts… I have had a fear since my twenties that one day it will no longer exist at some point in my lifetime.  Whether this feeling is due to my religious beliefs that the world we know will be gone one day, or, environmental concerns (or both) I don’t know, but I have had this stuck in me for a long time.  While I have one life to live right now, I would like to see the planet and meet as many people who I share it with as much as I can, while I am alive.  I have been reading up and researching on the places I wish to see one day, and I like to look at the list now and then, dreaming of going to them one day:

Kyoto, Japan

Rome, Italy

London, England

Ireland

Paris, France

~Ange.




Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

My Tips - August 25, 2014

Over the past three years I have been asked lots about my health and beauty habits and overall general lifestyle because many people are curious about one another’s habits these days and what we can do to help ourselves stay healthy and energetic.  Given that I am a vegan, I am particular about my simple but strict beauty habits as well as I have a personality that seems to either draw people to me or make them despise me instantly (I really am crazy) I get asked questions about my regiment frequently; especially after I turned thirty. 

I must point out that I love to share but I must remind people here as I do with others face-to-face is you also need to figure out what works best for you, and if you are having troubles seeing doctors and health nutritionists (even get a second opinion if you feel you need to) and talk to people in your personal life who seem to have it right for themselves.  Sharing and learning is important to figure out what is right.  I say again, I love to share, but what works for me is not going to work for everyone.
 
Many things I do now all stems from a chain reaction that began in 2008.  I started with being more environmentally conscientious so I began to regard what I bought, waste management at home, and recycling or reusing things. This lead to me finding out about what health and beauty products that have environmental and animal impacts, as well as how it can effect my health.  Then it lead to the way I eat.  The rest is stuff that has been there before all of it, that is credit to my upbringing.

Here is what I do:
-little or no makeup

-no hair products
-Canadian handmade non-perfumed beauty products

-lots of water

-special treat beverages are tea, and orange juice (not mixed together of course)
-rest and sleep (even during the day if I feel I need it so if my body is telling me to slam on the breaks and take rest I do) and when I have troubles sleeping at night I lie and meditate or focus on peaceful prayerful thoughts until I doze off.

-I love walking and hiking, but, when I feel like I need something more I do whatever my body is telling me it would like to try; so sometimes a run, swim, or a kickboxing type workout is usually thrown in here and there.
-when I work it is something that has to keep me active, keeps me busy, feels routine, but gives me the flexibility to change things up and also be creative, and give of myself.

-during vacation time I go somewhere, I get away.
-get plenty of sun and fresh air, even going out if there is not much sun that day.

-vent when I need to because keeping things that worry me or are stressful are not good for me to keep bottled up; sitting with others and talking helps me.
-prayer and faith in something bigger than me; God is my belief

-take moments a few times a week to be spontaneous and do something fun

-rarely drink alcohol

-I don’t intake a lot of sugar and have cut down on a lot of salt in the past ten years
-think healthy thoughts: count my blessings and what I am grateful for, observe and appreciate nature, take moments to think of things that make me happy or fill me with joy.
~Ange.





Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.


Focusing on the Good, and Riding Out the Extreme Emotions – August 24, 2014

With everything that keeps hitting us, it can be hard to focus on the good, the miraculous, and any lucky breaks we get; especially small ones.  When life continues to throw you the bad stuff you begin to wonder what life is all for? What is it all worth?  Then you hear about suicides, people killing and torturing one another right in front of the world… that’s when I really begin to question life, and what good is there left?  It becomes sad, depressing, and scary and therefore it just hurts all over to try and think of anything, even if it is the good stuff.

It is times like this that makes me glad I am home with my family for the time being as we all come together and work to help one another during this period when our own little world is hurting, and the rest of the world seems to be in just as much pain, or worse.

This is when I have to really have to meditate, tune out the rest of the world and just pray with all my heart, my mind, my soul, hope, and faith I have in my entire being.  I give all these pains and feelings of despair to the Big Guy of the universe and ask for me to shift my focus: to any happy events that occurred amidst the turmoil, how I am blessed, the awesome family and friends around me. 

I discovered in my thirties how I am no longer surprised by the horrible things that come my way, and yet, I can still fear; anxious-fear that causes a huge jolt of adrenaline fueled panic in me.  These days, with all that has happened, as soon as I have any happy moment I know there will be another obstacle to come at me, it never fails and it comes really fast.  It seems as if life is getting good, then suddenly I am back where I was before the joyous moment.  I get confused, annoyed, saddened, and yet I recover a little more quickly through leaning on others and praying. Nonetheless, I get angry with myself for how extreme my emotions get on my insides…

One moment I am afraid of everything, and somehow terrified of nothing…

Even feeling as if I know everything and yet at the same time that angst of knowing nothing…

I know who I am, but when certain crisis’ hit I suddenly feel like I don’t recognize myself…

Wondering what I am doing sometimes including with all this writing (given my life and chain of events) and yet I feel like I am right where I am supposed to be and know it is right…

Sometimes when I feel my weakest I also feel incredible strength…

At times when I am very brave I am also extremely terrified…

Or when am I hopeful I can seem hopeless…

At moments of when I feel I am completely stupid it feels like I know everything too…

Despite many of the negative thoughts I have had of people and the world we live in, I feel and think more positively… I experience more love, care, spiritual strength.
~Ange.



Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.

Waking Up Is Hard – August 20, 2014

I am often referred to as such a happy, energetic person all the time.  However, not many people have seen me in the mornings when I first wake up, and that is not a pretty sight; nor am I happy or energetic for the first while.  I am a very different person at wake up versus the person you see a few hours later.

When I first blink as I awaken, I close my eyes tight in hopes I don’t have to get up right away.  I always have this feeling of depression, annoyance, and sadness, as if I want my life to end and for the world to go away; I have even thought of poking out my eyeballs and hitting my head over with a mallet.  If others are near me and try to talk to me I try to stay silent or I sometimes have been very grumpy, because I just want to be left alone. 

I initially hope that I can return to sleep and have a happy and very unrealistic dream.  I don’t know why I think this when I first come out of my slumber nor do I comprehend why I feel such angst, I have accepted that I just do and remind myself that in a few hours I will feel much better.

In the meantime the point from wake up until I leave my front door to go somewhere feels hard and painful; not that it is literally painful, but it seems like it for some reason. To get myself up and ready, I have to tell myself that I have to get up, and go through the reasons why I need to get up; whether it is a work day or a weekend or during vacation, it doesn’t matter I still have to tell myself why.  Then I tell myself there is a set time now, and in that set time I have to get up.  I usually tell myself that in ten seconds I am going to get up.  I count, and then I get up.  I take my time, I go slow, and prepare myself. This is often why I get up so early in the day, because I need to take my time.  After about two hours I am smiling, and ready to enjoy my day. I have my little rituals of washing up, picking clothes, doing makeup and hair, preparing myself a nice cup of tea.  Whether I have breakfast right then or a bit later doesn’t matter, but in the meantime whether I am heading to work or going to do errands (or just going wherever my plans take me) there is always a walk involved; walking relaxes me, it helps me to wake up more, and get in a more positive frame of mind. That is, walking and music help because before I leave home there are usually the headphones on too.

I know for certain that I can’t have anyone around me for the first couple of hours because I don’t feel like I want to talk, and listening to headphones is helpful to use as sign to others that I am not ready for conversation.  Having upbeat music fill my ears and go up into my head for the first part of my morning seems to get me in a more positive state of mind and I am able to start feeling happier.  I even notice my smile starts to show up as well.

No matter how old I get, this feeling has never gone away.  I think I was first aware of it when I was about seven years old?!

Anyone else out there not a morning person either?
~Ange.



Copyright 2014 Lucky 33: Stories, Experiences, Perspectives, and Opinions of a Woman Who Made It To Her Thirties.